Look at her. Do you see it? Her eyes are shut tight and she's letting go with every inch of her body. She knows without a doubt he won't drop her. I don't know what makes her so sure. Who knows what he's capable of doing or done. And her, what has she done to him? Nothing? Maybe but maybe not. No one knows and to watch her is like watching an ant. Where is it going and why? The brain of someone in love is a little unpriortized. But the brain of a lover with more then one partner is always ploting. So is it that she closes her eyes because she wants to feel the moment without spoiling it with her sences? Or is it she doesn't want to show guilt when he looks at her in the eyes?
There is so much that an outsider sees. It doesn't mean anything. It's like watching a movie without sound. You may think you can read their emotions but the more you can understand, the more they seem to be tricking you.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Once upon a time I knew everything. I knew how the world work and what I was supposed to do. I knew where I was to go in life and what paths not to take. I'm pretty sure from the ages 15-17 I knew it all. I should have gone to college then. I probably would have my Doctorate by now. Who knows I could have cured cancer. But I let life happen as it naturally does. I've seen conflicts that I swore I knew the answer to. And years later regret the choice that I made. I've realized that no one can tell you what is going to make you happy in life. They can tell you what possibly can make you rich. They can tell you when you're most fertail. They can tell you how to study and become an expert in the area you want to learn. They can tell you how they found peace within themselves. Unfortunately as much as you'd like to think the answer is out there waiting for you to find it. It's not. You need to find it within yourself. I would say most people never find it. Most give up or try to find happiness in doing what other find joy in. Sad. Take some time away from everything. What five things in your life right now make you happy? If it's too hard for you, I won't judge you. But I won't save you from judging yourself.